Sometimes I feel as if I just know labor is coming really soon. I can feel his head is really low down and it often causes me quite a bit of pain when his head presses down but that HAS to be a good thing right? It just has to mean progress is being made right? Nope. Doesn't mean a darn thing. If there is one thing I have learned in all this it is when it comes to labor everything means absolutely nothing until the baby is crowning. You can be 3cm dilated and 85% effaced but not have the baby for weeks...or you could be perfectly normal and have the baby in the next 24 hours. I ran across another blogger's analogy and thought it was perfect. Waiting for labor to begin is kind of like going through the 5 stages of grief:
-Denial: "Nope, this baby is coming very soon, I just know it!"
-Anger: "Dear baby, I love you and all but...get out of there! Why on Earth am I still pregnant!? How dare that woman parade her new baby in front of me- Jerk!"
-Bargaining: "Please, Please, Please come out...I'll buy you anything you want if you do- your own Xbox, candy, heck I will let you have soda every day. I will do anything, just please come out of there already!"
-Depression: "I will be pregnant forever. There is no end in sight, nothing works and all those people who say it will be over soon are full of it."
-Acceptance: "I give up. He's coming when he wants to and there is nothing I can do about it."
I am officially on maternity leave, mostly because I seem to be fighting a really nasty bug that is hiding up in my sinuses at the moment and attempting to move into my chest as well. I have a cough that won't quit and a very stuffy nose so I am pretty useless at the moment. Being off work has left me with one major hobby...waiting for labor. It would really help if I knew what I was waiting for too. I have no idea what the heck it is I'm supposed to be waiting for. I know something like only 1 in 3 women have their water break first but I've talked to about 6 different women who all started off with the water breaking...so am I waiting to become the hoover dam? or am I waiting to feel contractions? and if it's contractions how will I know when they are real because I've been having them all the time. It's like somebody telling you a backsund is coming to get you...but you have no idea what a backsund is, what it looks like or when it will show up. Kudos if you get the reference as to what a backsund is (it involves a recently released Disney movie).
Like I said, waiting for labor is my main hobby now. I have been trying just about everything in the world to coax Roxas into making his grand entrance soon. So far nothing works. Nothing. I even made the famous "Scalini's Eggplant Parmesan" that is rumored to have put well over 300 ladies into labor. The only thing I have gotten from it was tired feet after 3 hours of cooking and the knowledge that I still hate eggplant no matter how many times I shovel it into my face. I go on walks every day which usually give me some mild contractions but they die down quickly. Today my mom treated me to a nice pedicure complete with foot and leg massage where the nice lady rubbed extra hard on the acupressure spots that are supposed to help start labor. I also got my hair done, so now would be a wonderful time to go into labor, what with my hair looking all styled and toes freshly painted! (hint hint Roxas!) I have kind of reached the point of acceptance where I have come to terms with the fact that he may not be here for another 3 weeks...and that thought doesn't sit well with my impatient self. I keep bouncing back and forth between thinking "it could happen any minute...it could happen in the next 5 minutes" and "it's never going to happen, they are going to end up inducing me and these next three weeks are going to be miserable!" It's a bit of an emotional roller coaster to say the least. Nobody ever tells you the last 2-3 weeks of pregnancy are always the hardest. Everybody tells me to relax and rest up since I won't get this kind of time when he is here and believe me- I understand that on a logical level- but the other part of me just wants this suspense and waiting to be over!
So, next Wednesday is the official due date...and until then...good grief I hope it's sooner...
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